I regularly fill my head with condemnation,
About the past and situations.
My overthinking takes over the slight contemplation,
Before I know I’m living a life of hesitation.
Pausing for weeks on every decision,
My mind and body are anxiety ridden.
Anxiety thoughts caused by synapse collisions,
Behaviour prompting relationship decomposition.
My body is now in fight or flight and all I can do is sleep.
Run baths twice a day so I can sit alone and weep.
No one deserves to be close enough to hurt me,
My unforgiving of self is mine to keep.