Author: Hamzah Mir
The poem, ‘Self Momenting’ depicts a perspective of an individual going through depression.
Though everyone has unique experiences, there is a common ground where we can relate well-being and emotional states.
Sadness can be an example of a experienced state. Though not always, sadness is a varying energetic response to disinterest or dislike of a situation or matter. Depression, can be a much longer-lasting state that many have experienced.
As I wrote this poem, I want readers to have a sense of relation and understand what one may go through in depression. The first and second stanza displays the state of depression where one ‘zones out’ from life and disregards time.
Too, with the repeating line: “Time oh time I need my time,” the individual has the realization they have lost their time and is desperate to regain it back. The fifth stanza describes the state where the individual experiences a brain fog: a state where cognition is not easy to grasp or not as attentive. Also, to the fifth stanza, the phrase ‘fogged outside,’ is a double entendre.
Fog in an environment can occur from pollution or natural occurrences, and it may affect cognition, which may lead to having feelings of depression. As well as, when there is fog outside, it may be harder to see further on, and the range of perspective may become shorter.
Thus, this lack of clarity to look further correlates to shortsightedness in the long term of a person experiencing depression. The sixth stanza depicts the emotional dependence the individual requires on pleasures.
Though these transient emotional outbursts may give a feeling of satisfaction, it is best not to rely on pleasurable materials but rather to find the root cause and solution of the situation, as the contrast of going back to the state of depression will make one disillusioned. Thus, “pleasures numbs and lies.”
Going further into the poem ‘Self Momenting’ may have displayed the perspectives of an individual experiencing depression. But, like us examining the poem in-depth, I hope that we look deeper into ourselves and find what may be or become a detriment to our life.
As we look at the nuisances in our life that affect us, we should not ignore or forget them and try to understand/learn to grow from them. You deserve to be the best version of yourself, and you will be; with will, persistence, love and patience.